Youtube life

I live off of youtube and when this apps absolutely crashed in my iphone i felt not very good. Maybe i did not update to the latest ios that makes it not working and unable to update. Bugs go away. 

Had a talk with my mom about renting a friends house in Kuantan. Told her that the master bedroom with bathroom attached will be rm400 per month and the other smaller room rm200. She thought it is too expensive to run. I was thinking installing the ac if it gots too hot. I know it is hot over there when the time comes. June may or may not be hot. Depending on the monsoon though. 

I felt ok about getting back to kuantan its where my life will be for the next freaking 10 years. I think. Maybe i will pay back the stupid 150k bond and move away to kl. I dont know. 

My research is going ok. Am collecting data now so far had less than 20. Need to buy more tokens for these elders. They are not very happy though but i hope i will get enough sample. Am promised to tag along this week to help me get interview. Dont know if he is joking or else.....

Very unsatisfactory result

Had a look at my research proposal result and i only got a B+ this is frustrating. 

First paper

Last Friday afternoon me and a friend Am we discuss on a new paper that we intended to publish for that M project. It will be a mixed method where i will be doing the quantitative part and he will be doing the qualitative part. All the discussions will be done by him and translation by Ay. 

I thought the discussion was thought provoking. Anyway it is a brainstorming session. I didnt understand at first at what he was looking at. He is a social science media student and he talks about wanting my "scientific mind" to put into this paper. I was not really that scientific minded anyway since nursing is a combination of both scientific and arts. So i thought i think differently than those biomedics. We discussed more on the objectives depending on our existing data and how he can better explain them with qualitative later. 

I have never imagined doing a mixed method but now i think i wanted to do it. But i am more on doing an ethnography instead because i am really into culture these days. 

Am I pligiarising?

Met my mentor early morning initially just to kill time before i met with the clinical sv. My mentor is also the examiner for my research proposal and she had done marking my writeup. She was not present for the final presentation. She called me in her room and started with a serious tone. You want me to be honest dont you. Here i want to tell you. Your writing is not like your style of writing. I knew you from semester 1 and your writing style is very different. I quickly asked her if she thought i was copying others work and i denied them all. Then i told her that she was the one who suggest that i read few articles and people's work that are excellent and look at their writing style. She said my writing is very good but its not like mine. She knew me too well perhaps. 

She said that in time i will find and develop my own writing style. I have yet to understand that statement. 

Then met with clinical sv and she explained well all the sample calculations and randomization process to be done in the ward. She lend me 2 of the hearing amplifier. I could not meet the ward sister she was on night duty. Apparently i can start the pilot study now even before ethical approval. 

I left for my MELoR meeting at 10. 

Went to melor office after lunch and finished up some papers. Went out with a colleague. He soothes me and invited me to join his publishing paper. I am so excited to join them and hoping i can help the best i can. He is only 25 but he got good prospect and determination. I like that about him.  

Motivated after a youtube video

Went for a jog then had a less than 15 minutes of aerobic dance in KBS. Funny i still had almost zero stamina i cant even lift up my hand for the exercise anymore after a few minutes. Felt great and thin afterwards. Done with my weight loss story. 

I had a good chat with my eldest brother and parents. Then watch youtube and tv all day. Searched for night routine college and i see that 2 videos the girls had their homework/ study first after coming back from college or after dinner. And then finally they will start youtube or netflix. I guess that is the right way. I always start with youtube and then wont even study because i got tired and just get ready for bed afterwards. 

Gotta change all that!! Still had lots to do to improve on my final thesis project. Wish me luck. 

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Will start with this oxy matte gel on top of my benzac 2.5%. Finally i put on sunblock and all done! 

Felt really stressed out. My mother still in the hospital with anemia and unknown heart condition. Tried to email coordinator who takes care of our proposal but failed. So i tried to see the HOD but in Kelantan and said i better email coordinator instead. I knew that forever and i did that. I wont response to them anymore. Go the fuck up. I dont care i will submit when i feel like submitting it.