Heavy chest

Having heavy chest. Heaviest heart ever. Been fighting like dogs. Working like dogs. Obedient like dogs. Until i fell sick!

Whats there for me anymore. Jodoh dan ajal di tangan Tuhanku. Siapalah aku untuk mengelak atau mendesak. Tak mungkin berlaku kerana kebodohan aku. Tak mungkin berlaku kerana keangkuhan aku dengan dunia. Ingin menjadi creme of the creme. Tapi tidak kesampaian. Melihat orang lain. Buat aku jadi cemburu. Perasaan manusia perlu ada itu dan ini.

I hate being sick every breath feel so heavy and hurt. I wish i dont have to move a muscle to breathe. Its pain. More painful thinking what i dont haves. I want to have the dont haves. The attraction of it is like a poison. But my ego prevent me from having it. I care a lot of what will become of me. I care a lot. Ya Tuhan.