26/2/2016

Talked to a senior colleague in my faculty. She said the UQ scholarship usually given to astounding people who has published several papers and really excellent. Now i have lost all hope and aiming at something else. I am so feeling unmotivated to work at all now. 

Killing time until my zumba class. 

25/2/2016 me time

I need a me time. Not away from children or housework. But away from husling work at the office. I am getting away just to make a proposal and sit down properly to think about it. Bless me God. Please. 

I am applying solely and relying on only one phd application to UQ. i dont have a very massive dream of getting into very distinctive school. I just want to have an experience studying overseas. Just to have a different kind of learning environment and what was people talking about the good side of studying overseas. UK is my first choice but fate makes me apply only OZ. But thats fine. FINE! i will try my best. 

6/2/2016

Found myself really scared being on a plane. Scared of crashing and burn. Maybe too much of news about planes crashing makes me adopt the feeling of planophonbia. Lol! I made that up. 

But i like to travel. And i am able. I just dont have that much time. So. Nice one i thought i will commit to that spain tour and extend them a bit to visit my friends in UK. Ah well. 

3/2/2016

Now that i am the only one still single among my siblings i think it made other people concern or maybe pity me more than usual? 

My students suddenly texted me saying i am the ever beauty. Lol! I am darkened from being in Kedah. Bronzer much. 

I did not addressed any of the nasty comments on Students feedback survey since i thought its mature not to give a damn about it. I am yet to response appropriately. I wish they would respect us accordingly. 

Above the air 1/2/2016

I am writing when this mas airplane was about to board. Still driving ever so slowly on this tarmac. Soon i will be thousands km above the ground. Great view that i want to savour. I got a window seat. Am coming back from a Karnival pengajian tinggi negara 2016 in Alor Setar to KLIA and back to Kuantan. I am alone since my colleague had been back a day earlier. 

I was seated next to a little girl must have been about 2 years old and she kept on talking in her cute little voice half understood. She really reminded me of Ap my little nephew. Cant stop smiling the whole flight. I gave her my headphone and she was so eager to watch the cartoons. Then she fell asleep just before we land in KLIA. I didnt budge anymore since i have a very important mission. 

Mitsui by free shuttle. It was a real adventure running around like that. I made it though.