15.5.2022

I am not the only one who felt wearing selipar jepun is ugly AF. Had a chat in pantry the other day with a very senior colleague whose been in government sector for over 20 years. She said when first came to this institution, she had keep up appearances with heels and nice clothes. Looking at the higher position people dressing down, wearing slippers in office made her change and being sloppy dressed is the choice now. It's easier and comfy. But ugly. But that's how everyone is anyway. 

I'm conforming to the culture too. Stupid but I'm trying to fit in! Haha. Wrong reason. 

Never thought I'd feel unattached. Distance from my family/home when I lost one parent. Don't feel like spending that much time time anymore, other than my own home. Maybe it just don't feel home anymore. When you lost a mother. I feel content just being by myself. Could be that I'm old enough to only want my own company. Could be I still long for one that I lost. 

14.5.2022